WEDNESDAY0 ~ WEDNESDAY ONE0001
A TRANSCRIPT OF ME FEELING THE ANXIETY SHIT
i have found that whilst there is chlorine in my system the addition of caffiene? or just V canister fluid and mising with a secondary coca cola can 40g sugar well it primes me to have anxiety iv i refrain from having the v canister i only hit the verge of anxoety like yesterday though today with the addition of kfc two dollar chips it sent me over the edge later on when i got anxious waiting for approx an hour for a lift. so yeah conclusions are the anxiety is primed with the V and only due to being acuphazed in may on the 9th this year has now V become a problem to be a primer as for the duration of time i only drank V and cola and ate pizza i didnt have [one] incidence of anxiety whilst i was off all medication. though i did have that one incidence when i split my knuckles open skitzing it and not hitting anything just contortion like hand gesture split my knuckles and from such when i washed my hands with chlorine soap the chlorine got into my blood stream and then hence gave me the anxiety. those poor soldiers that got chlorine gases, i wonder what the truth is about the urine and socks breatheing threw it must be the ammonian salts? or element you reckon? hence why i find that shard the crystal that sometimes is made from ammoneiall salts like the montage "injoi ammonia sniffing slats today" that hilltop song 1955. anyway its now 241pm and i got to go easy and endure this dash of anxiety that may be present until i sleep. unfortuately im still not with sarah the angel who would tickle my feet to rid me of this nervousa that renderes me useless. I guess whilst on the medication that may be for life i have to, still be loyal to suntory though limit my canister consumption most purely. iv not ill have the anxiety that i still cant find a cure with ilicit antidotes being made not to constingent regular. meaning it differs and i cant reply on it as my saviour unless in future it gets worst. hopefully it doesnt and i eventually reach a girl olders heaven. though younger then allison and me for iv not she may achey break me heart as most older girls do. i should say never the younger ones though its just me alone today wednesday one.0
i should write more on the site and have them as anxiety files or some thing that may add to the site content. it would have been good to have all my bsde0000 files that i had on this households first computer that had windows 3.1 its the one or some before windows95.
time now +-0246 so +-1446 in the after noon i hope to speak with my ex allison soon for she still is a good friend. just can never love depend. for im not the male at her storys end.
ill edit this and make it a html file. 246 wednesday0 ~ wednesday one.0 ~ uploaded before 3:07pm & edited now 3:08pm 18/JULY/18
just listening to this from reminisance of sitting in the car with popesquady ~ Bass Station - Underground Sounds - Disc 2: Master Kaos [specially the drop @ 2:54 & 3:21]