Logbook 03
9:10pm - is the time right now I logged on at 9:08pm and opened this notepad application at 9:09pm and yeah now is 9:10pm as i type this string of text on Tuesday The 17th of March 2020.$ though yeah before I caught the bus off the hill the one that leaves beauty bend at 716pm I felt like crying for some reason then I looked up and seen a car that made me remember my ex mate and how he had one similar though i think it was actually his car and the number plates swapped like two of his other cars that had i think been the case as he must of liked the near personalized plates of the speshill 200k plus or something car and gave that cars plates to another car that was still luxury though not to the extent of the coulda bought a house with tax deduction depreciation one of the driving motivations to purchase such when I was friends with him though later fell out though the feeling of about to cry was about thinking that again another silly nieve girl that I liked i thought was with him and either get ulcers on external skin or just reshapeing reconfiguration like all too many due to steroid use to increase his boastability that has only xzystance in future torments or ordeals to what the redtube maggotizm of him capitalizeing on failed to pay rent or just respect from those that thought or think he is cool though iv it wasn't a girl that I liked most recently the tangabile that has me feel im in hell almost everyday though unforunately i think it was a meet up and a hundred dollars for an hour consequtive of bullscrypt that is core reasoning almost for entirely his bad form...... though yeah upset me as i think it was again my brothersz girlfriend though we should hope it wasnt and was just a girl i liked most recent or at all. Anyhow over the unnoired solicitations/z that heartbreak.. anyway their life not mine ey ?
9:17pm - I am here at this computer setup and i may as well only use the computer briefly as i hav already had my 2x 20mg Olanzapine ODT'$ and I just need to do some banking straighten up my account and that i need to send money once paid and yeah other then that I want to just go to bed and meditate on the good thoughts i was getting from thinking of this one particular girl and how when on the phone the other night to my exGirlfriend the feelings i was getting from thinking of the other girl was a "im going to heaven or hell for likeing her" sorta theme though yeah thouse lower sharkrahs that today i thought might have just been the first smaller intestine though it was more non organ based i thought and iv i was a girl it would be near height of stomach abdomdimon as where id inmagine the felopian tubes orbs sit at similar height and with the finite prayer of praying for a girlfriend that hasnt sinned against me well I was confidant that this particular girl maybe the women to marry iv my insanity is not completed bullscrypt and my xzystance is not entirely hell like it has been when by myself and not talking to anyone that grace such thought and or conclusion. Anyhow time now is 9:21pm Tuesday The 17th of March 2020.$