9:06pm - I sat at this computer and loged in 1stly.
9:58pm - I am now sitting here still with breaks since above entry just done a minute ago though though remembered when I first sighted the time on the computer monitor so I can see the screen due to dropping and ruining the laptops own screen hence the cupboard location being the NE56R laptop setup 1 though yeah I think this is my 2nd most recent laptop though the other one had similar problem i being a stupid cunt useing it outside on the verandah dropted it or it fell of the whatever foundation i had it resting on though yeah most recent laptop i am unusre where it may be other then trunk archive storage though yeah got that 3rd or something day at S.E.C.U. december 2015 though yeah cost $505something cheapest at time only just near over halve my pay that after a few weeks at S.E.C.U. was nonxzystant as the hosptial MONASH HEALTH that run or own the S.E.C.U. unit 4B would leech and drain near $49 per day to be there even though it was against my desires to be admitted for Secured Extended Care Unit unit 4B though yeah thank God for Kimberley a local girl i met on the footpath from the hospital leave exit doors to the milkbar being the first person that said "HEY" to me first ! as before then I was being friendly saying hey to everyone happy that i was granted leave for halve an hour or how ever long able to finally have ciggy and pay overpriced unsustainable product purhcase of V500ml canisters that I need each day having the like HYDROPHANT with sea water salt water growning only in my gut from drinking 4 x 500ml V canisters a day for over a year near 2013 my gut got used to the animal bile ?taurine? not urine though may be present in the added swash rinse of the concrete abby cells like tree nuts on certain chocolate edibles though yeah now that song Gangs of Youth - What can I do when the fire goes out is a nostgalhghia feel sense song of time again just when i got out of SECU and Allison was staying in my bed each night and before that the lead up nightly visits just talking useing and not smoking dope until 3days after the night we first kissed (even though im pretty sure we kissed once up the back of my parents back in 2005? and had to do with me cracking the shiFts and smashing a mirror over my head and Maroondah Emergency Incident 1 or ? that assisted in the 2006 first psychiatric hosptial admission though yeah I am pretty sure we kissed before the 13th of July 2016 over a decade before though she doesnt remember though yeah would of flared up due to not allowed to have a girlfriend stay over even though i would have been 17 or 18 though i think she had a boyfriend at the time hence the no admission to it happening though this sitar mexican guitar playing fast as on the one or near notes and the round round round her we go with the minor key drop is so much like the soundtrack of that movie i watched on repeat with 1 other though the movie i got off a mate who gave me the bluray 7 psychopaths though yeah time now 10:09pm and the song is ending ended almost completely now..
10:10pm - A minute early though I need $1,010.00c AUD available balance for a measure of seriousness i was told or hinted mentioned thought of for this idea of getting a girlfriend soon in the near future that I really hope I do though for reason of waivering me as a complete unclean junkeE I have to show I can have such available and saved it and not spent it as a prooveable means of down for the cause..
Though yeah I think its just so I have that $500 buffer over the overdraft $500 and also have the $10.00c AUD ready for the fee takeing it out for having to not wait the days my transfered pay didnt return hence the had to overdraft and now stuck paying the ten dollar fee on June 1st 2020 though yeah got USHER - CRASH playing on spotify though anyway other then haveing the thousand available in my account there wasnt any other preNUPstyled nil bullscrypt and I think it was favoured and desired my policy and belief and means of fairness and removes chance of unrecorded mooching that even iv I do get married to somenoe I love like me and Sarah the condition when regarding financials is that we both are our own financial entitys meaning my moneys mine your moneys yours though for goodness and grace and oppurtunity for higher interest savings this idea of after having the $1000 available ($500 overdraft coin $500 my own) that I can not touch under no circumstance unless we living at the middle hotel or someshiFt awaiting transport to the halocaust cermatorium though mopney is useless in such was a reality for people less then a hundred years ago just not on this island AustraliA anyway, I though iv I was direct credited $3,500.00c AUD into my account so prove-able from transactions list records then my current 37hundred something max gift allowance gets reached and an additional 3500 australian dollars in banknotes for my use and all the physical suffient principle of a $7grand investment into me and my danbanK well this is ment to be the sitch between me and my future girlfriend though due to us being seperate financial entitys so maybe no joint account though for her investing $7000 into me I return the favour by provideing an ongoing interest income stream of $1 dollar per day paid however best liked so either a direct debit of exactly a dollar a day from my account to hers or just $14 per fortnight centrelink pay getting credited to her unless she wants it in may soon be phazed out money coins bank notes etc though yeah no arears intent or anyway the credit interest would not be paid unless i was killed or government changes the payment currency of pension mental health welfare though yeah I would still owe her the $7000 seperate and forever id be paying her the dollar a day or $14 a forntight though it equates as a 5.20 % p/a credit interest / yield return and pretty much is twice as much as the highest online saver credit interest rate available so basically because my plans are not to abort given uploads equate to pregnancy well because we would be together forever the money is safely invested in me and she never has to pay not even a cent for anything that i consume or get, want = that is what my pension is for covering me so i can not have to loan or steal or be a crim and also so im not a mooch off a person especially my partner though this setup of $7grand invested in me as a negative 5.20 % p/a seams stupid for me to engage into only because the only availble investments that I could use that 7grand for do not exceed a div yield of 5 or 4 % per year and credit interest is like 2 something % p/a (per year) ! balance x 0.0RATE / 365 x days in month = credit interest paid )) though yeah its just so she can have a poxy highest interest credit interest paid to her and im like the lock away term deposit saving account that id also state iv i was killed died or whatever then sell portion of my shares and get the 7grand back via that means though aside that i thought it was good as she can then with all the money she has earned all her life as haunts?Z psychlink stated that this future girlfriend wife was a girl that has worked all her life and due to such i want to offer the benifit that only costs me the dollar a day though a dollar a day credit interest paid every week or fortnight (that doesnot or limit in xzystance as banks pay interest once a month) though this boutique arrangement is twice as good as $14,000.00c AUD in a 2.60 % p/a = that is what is needed to get paid a dollar per day in credit interest so hopefully the 5.20 % p/a credit interest rate that allows for only $7,000.00c AUD needed for a dollar a day to accure and gets paid on time without fail i wont be leaveing her side
....anyhow I am shiFting on though yeah get the sitch so theres the dollar a day she starts her retirement married life with, then iv she is like minded and thinking nil abortion due to the cost of your partner later on even iv you love each other due to others interfering like me and sarah when our relationship became highly toxic orjust yelling and discontent was happening due to stresses and not rooting enough or at all though yeah it was the early abortion that changed her body and my momentum to knock up this 20 kids though yeah anyhow sorry Sarah I hope you and Tommy are going good and this expectant child this month any day now and 25 years old & a mother i hope everything good happens for you and nothing ruins your deserved AustraliAn dream of having a partner and a fmaily a home and no intrusion and tampering that fortuneately you not psychiatirically ensnared consequents. anyhow I should hurry up and save this and then upload it to the MAY2020 menu though I was thinking of doing my own menu just for today though I cant really be bothered doing the transcribe of this 30 pages of journal that i thought hours ago i should do and make availble for annonymus viewers readers to see though yeah anyhow the time now is 10:31pm & the song that is starting i have no idea who it is sounds bit like Stevie Nicks I should listen to that 24 karat gold song......