I KEEP WORRYING THAT MY EXMATE NOW HAVE TO UNFORTUNATELY TITLE AND REFER TO AS SUCH ONLY AS MY TRUMPING RIVAL IN FACTUAL (nonSITUATIONALinEVERYallINCENCES?Z)measure pendant the inclusion of sins and virtue that even though io do not exceed any saint I still feel the pirate like badizm not exactly evil as this rival and was a friend i thought untill relizeing after being driven off on at a McDonald's carpark because he and my then girlfriend couldnt wait around for me to absorb much needed sunlight that was dusking in matter of 5s or 10s minutes an hour or less from that moment the sky was black and my depravity and unhealthy vitamin?neccessity for good health criteric measures and or molelecular count was direly needed due to succession of multiple days wearing myself out.......
....anyway I am worried that like with most girls I identity or make body movement and or gesture pose? big brother or sister government monitor surviellance observer of myself that for the past over a year nearly two years i think each and every girl i showed signs of likeing well the monitor agent would msg the contact details to either thekm personally as a random msg or my exmate rival and then due to telecommunications cheapness and easyment of use and reliance and or influencer of guideance and situational motivated to reach and or whatever just after brief psychology major degree partial or extra subject($) elected in business course in inner city uni and also the governing hates me woman or person that has the vendetta to ensure all girls that I like have their mouths poped paid or given girt free willingly only to ensure that my life is shiFT and can not be restored unless 1 such girl denys this psychology major and makes heaven of my xzystance via denying him and those i knew know and chooseing me myself though yeah even the idea of searching up a name of a girl i may have only talked to briefly at a train station or something the knowledge of like argus and medical records the observer and surveillancecrew of 1 or 2 or ? well they will know of the searched name given remote mouse curser and screen real time visuals and again forward such unknowningly or one feeling special that government agent assisted person($) are contacting and inviteing into ones private adultrate and more most recently had me envy the house hold layouts risen loft master bedroom, just not just my was next door neighbour exGirlfriend's parents house's above home office semi-secret loft computer room or alternative office that I think my ex'sz nephew was concieved in room loft well that room was special and good vibes and also supported my thoughts previously and before and after sleeping in such room the idea of this cathedral and backyad chapel that had a heighten ceilings and above loft room that resembled something out of lego inspirational sourced medieval castle or Repunzell hair loft tower, though yeah I wanted to build one out of blue stone the same stone that used to line an older residence my direct family lived in during the 90s and near though yeah knowing that this rival's within a leap year's purchase of such property after a home invasion i think that had a girl i liked submitted under the use of an intruder weilding a pistol though yeah bad shiFT and not exactly the sort of behaviour that my exfriend and exmate now rival indulge or even at all behave or get involved with these days *only saying that as he used to throw eggs at people on the footpath as he drove past and also he drove a car that was having other passengers fire a lemon cannon out the window and i think that is how a girl that was my friend i thought just not my girlfriend got struck/hit and had a disfigureing for month or so? face welt brusing that i think she had to go to hosptial over though there is that known past behaviours and the holding on to on the street buin handles and pulling them along several tens of metres only to let go and have ones rubbish scatter all over the road thinking its marvelous though more so the worser acts tend to be (due to causalty and or hurt inflication) was the always going offorad up gutters and on nature strips in order to run over bounceing bunnies, plain wild rabbits, he did wreck his car into inability to drive us home once or nearly most did one "holiday" at another mates (a shared friend)'s parents beachhouse though yeah thats years ago I did spend the majority of my spare time (that some say was nil in end-ing or of ceasement occuring)(even though since 2007 before i was 20 or nearbouts such birthday after not being allowed to leave a dandenong psych hosptial untill i agreed duressently into the arrangement of myself being on fortnightly every 14th day injected with dehabilitateing medication to ensure the later only this year found out about girl date drink spikeing not to have them unconcious though to have them awake and concertrated in a loss of time giving this kunt head girt favours for over 14 hours in some instances, and that on top of car theieveing my L.D'$ (LOVE DEPENDANCYS?Z) going to pick them up and chill with them after I drop them off home the era of me having a licence back then and foolishly unfairly being dogged only because I thought we as a nuclei central unit outside my siblings and parents and or exctended family well I thought it was traditional to introduce the other people that I associated with and thought were friends to nearly all the girls i wanted as a girlfriend though due to more reasons then jkust my testicle grarfting after ball swelling to a size unnatural leading to hosptial and surgery when i was in grade 6 either 11 or 12 years old.......
.....sorry just my mobile phone was calling and I only got to see the name of the caller being my exGirlfriend I better call her back time now 805pm Wednesday The 20th of May 2020