Saturday The 5th of September 2020
18:10 / 6:10 PM - I am now here at this cubboard computer setup just after asking a request to my brother's girlfriend's mate who I met back in i think 2013?or2012?though defs before 2014 and defs before me and Sarah broke up in August 2015 the month she would of turned 19 and was the year Sarah was twenty years old (my fear alongside the duration of me and Sarah's relationship I always worried and thought in the back of my head that I would miss out on her 21st birthday together and we were forcefully split up near or on the 18th of August 2015 exactly a hundred days before my pre-arranged detox and prelude-ing requirement of certain future incarceration and institutionalizeation of myself into Dandenong's Secured.Extended.Care.Unit. (S.E.C.U.) unit 4B that was an auxillery and attachment psychiatric hosptial ward/long stay and unjustifyably titled a rehab or rehabiliatation centre?infastructure? though yeah I spent six months there and am only really thankfull for certain parts of it and totally against the fact i had to be locktd up basically (luckily granted from start addmission due to a thankfull to have known been on better then cordial and on good terms with psychiatrist (the 1 that had to evaluate meto see iv I was a crook or not & was ?liasion???with the psychiatric prizon next to the Eastern Freeway called i think Thomas Embelling?$ though yeah this six months stay was just a harsher longer period?duration of stay? long stay psychiatric hospital addmission like equivY though yeah as a stint at say Maroondah Psychiatric Hospital unit ipu1 or ipu2 generally doesnt last longer then 30days as my last addmissiong to Maroondah in early May 2018 well I think i was admitted on the 6th ? and discharged on a C.T.O. (Community Treatment Order) on or near May 26th or May 27th 2018 the same year unlike S.E.C.U. that I was admitted taken to such a place via NPT merc?ambulance?people?patitent!inpaitent?prisoner??people mover on December 3rd 2015 and was there until again near or on the same calandar square just of two years prior: May 26th 2016 though yeah an allianced mateship?aligned in past 2 lodges teams united family that I look back on and view that in truth they sorta fostered me and never hurt me & the queen of that family unit when not placeing the crown on my mates there's mum would be the youngest of the lot and daughter of the eldest brother of 3 brothers, well her birthday is May 26th though year of the tiger just before millenium the year after the local to where i am now bushfires that happened in the late 90s though yeah I am still in debt to this fmaily I beleive even iv its money for the cracktd tiles i droptd imbellcile-izm-ly as me working any labour or "work" scenario i supersitiously or default reasons seam to always let down or disappoint the short termed employer and i am sorry to you all for this ! ! ! !
Though yeah now the time is 6:23pm Saturday The 5th of September 2020 & tomorrow is 1 mate of my exGirlfriend's 27th birthday I think and then three days later her father's birthday where I think he ages to 46 years old and like my fathers birthdate both are on the 10th of the month of their first child borns month birthday date month though yeah these two in particular are 14 years apart though again this particular person im gratefull for fostering both me and Sarah amongst their own family back years ago nearly a decade ago when i lived and slept next to my love of life then and still now (untill the idea and female requiv?equivY (1 Miss Yz) manifests into my xzystance though until then Sarah reigns supreme though yeah they their family fostered me and Sarah and kept us safe amongst her parent splitting up and constant at the time being yelled at and told off all too frequently living in my bedroom back then......
Anyway the time now is 6:26pm & I am thinking of another 93 born girl and pray that some day soon she messages me / emails me a vast quanity of information or requests my audience or presence until then it will take another girl like Sarah was back then to take my obbession from this one younger then me chinese chickhen though yeah her birthday is the following day after my younger though most oldest of the 3 youngers that xzyst and that i have as blood brothers of the same mother's birthday birthdate calandar square (those being the 14th and 15th) though yeah Sarah's youngest sister also's birthday birthdate calandar square resides in the direct 1 previous to this same one Leo Brother Sarah's sister's bday being the 13th (and another of her's has / is housed in the 31st of the same month !) though yeah enough personal identity fraud vital information i best end this 28th preSTARTjournalDIARYrecord here and finish with a below time stamp !
OCD'd TIME STAMP: 6:30 PM SATURDAY THE FIFTH OF SEPTEMBER 2020 : |