results_from_meditate-ing_file1a20z10412.txt

years ago near my birthday, either before or after the actual day / date / calandar square ,
haunts?z // psychLink // meditate-ing // laying down thinking // i had the thought and memory or story told to me regarding for instance for faith building and belief, beleiveable scenario that had me think maybe it is possible to beat the ex friend ?rival? not my mate person who gets a government mole to word him up of potential girls to either spike or just phorn with at his many of tenant free rentals that he owns and is in debt for,

....though yeah this scenario or memory or story was told to me and implemented a girl that i liked recently and was the first one to not have me devasted and or shattered from like all the previous girls all sucking this ex friend off and ruining any chance of certain courtship and nonpresence of malcontent/resentment. Anyway,

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the sitch was me and this mate ex friend and the girl i was into and likeing and wanted as my girlfriend back then us 3 went to the city right and on that trip/mish/city visit (melbourne) we ended up at McDonalds i think the one near Flinders St and we 3 sat on the top second floor and where we sat together apparently there was a coupling of two other people i think a boy and a girl sitting a few or next table across right, 
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now when the 3 of us sat there (me, my thought was mate, and girlfriend i wanted to date) my ex mate thought friend then goes "hurry up go get your girlfriend and us some burgers or ice creams soft serve cones or something was said right, ........so then i go kk mish down stairs to the counter to get us some edibles or someshiFt. anyway,

the two other people that I didnt talk to or know at all that psychLink tryed telling me was a brother and sister and the girl was the faith provider for when i went down stairs my so called mate conveans to the girl i wanted as my girlfriend something to the tune of "do u really like him? he is a bit of a derogatory dont u think? derogatory descrypt with proove-ing foundate on mistranslate, derogaotric and then promise of spoils type of bullshiFt, anyhow the girl and brother sitting nearby though "oh look that birthday dude has come back with the stuff he cant afford and has given them both something or somethin whatever the when down stairs conversation upstairs did not continue in my presence. anyway the girl thought what a crim,dog,traitor,car thief, un friendly friend of this poor near birthday gonna get dogged and loose his lovelike into want as girlfriend interest due to bad mateship.......

anyhow so we left the city and went back to the hills and home or wherever though my birthday is june 23rd 1987 this i think was 2008? and yeah the girl at the time who i wanted to date only stayed at mine/my parents place until i think early mid july or august not sure though apparently it stuck in the girl of the brother and sister table across witness of someone decieved because the suggestion to elope and cheat with the bad friend & the girl i liked back then was or had something to do with ths girl sister with the brother? or boyfriend? other person was her brithday or something though yeah thing is years later now 2021 and over a decade since then and since 2018 i think every girl ive liked and wanted to kiss hook up with or have as my girlfriend since after me and sarah my most intense relationship ive ever had, and longest, that is unfortuneately over after it surviveing just near 100 days short of 2 thousand consecuative days calandar squares...

anyhow i got some of this information jumbled up though the haunt/psychlink/thought/meditational memory/story/situation/scenario/reality or not intention or conditioning of me , !!!! to build my faith ! ! that heaven with a girl still could xzyst !!!! was just that the unknown to us 3 two persons sitting across on another strangers to us though as time and fate continued and relization and knowledge of this ex friend being a dog and not my friend to extent of purchaseing a house up the street and haveing my sister i never knew of and plenty of overage or lolitas for returbe uploads anyhow the girl witness that i never knew unless it is /was the girl i met this easter (20z1) apparently after witnessing and hearing the decietfulness of this supposed mHell pov?chav?bong head daniel's mate forever under no circumstance the girl unknown ever forward after such display would ever favour or give herself to this fraud my ex friend , so yeah point was there maybe a chance in the future due to God and GoOd making full convinceing proovest evidence all there fakery believed true and the truth that not exactly though ackzadgerateing millions of girls turn off from me and go to him not currupt and ruin/spoil/soil/taint at least 1 beuatiful soul that had more principle and virtue or zero intent on favouring a crooked dog to someone who was clearly all their friends?/z! so yeah iv it wasnt the girl i met on Easter at a mates art uni party whos 30 now and im 34 this year and 23 or so days later ?22?21?think21calandar squares between our brithdays though she turns 31 though yeah maybe its someone else though i wanted it to be this girl who hasnt had me shattered on psychlink for giving head favours to this person i thought in the past was my friend though had a falling out not for forgiving him for shiFting on public bbqs though for driving off with my 2017 only a few years ago girlfriend who was older then me all because they didnt want to wait in the carpark for me to absorb sunlight due to that older girl and me's relationship consisting of fair over amount of depravitity to health neccessitys?/z! anyhow who gives a shiFt i doubt that girl i liked on easter who has a boyfriend will read this though thinking i should copy n paste it and put it on unfree.coffeecup.com

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11:54 PM - MONDAY - THE 12TH OF APRIL 20z1 - ! ! ! - !