Dan's Diary 2016 May 26th

Here I am and I have anxiety not too bad because I've had the zyprexas though it is still there a little bit I believe it is the depot and it mixing with Caffeine. It always happens after having caffeinated drinks and starts with fear of anything that maybe troubling me. I hope it ends soon and I feel better soon this writting is helping me take my mind off it though it can only do so much it is a killer this anxiety I believe. 

I believe.
Which do I believe?

I believe CENSORED started this anxiety though it is from useing it in the past and now I am paying for it I dont know when it will end. At least the anxiety has subsided. I am glad. I hate anxiety its a real killer and inhibitor I can function correctly whilst I feel the anxiety it gets me every time I have to submit.

First day free and already wanting to get on some form of enhancer though I guess it will be a dumb choice so I shall just remain sober till I have my licence back then I will decide if having a CENSORED is a good idea or not. I hope I get to have a good time whilst out it is a day ive waited for too long. I am glad I'm out though. I wonder which this winter has in stall for me and which new people I'll meet or who from past will come back in my life. I can't wait to hear from Kimberley and see how her trip went and it would be fun to see her again she is a good friend. I wonder how Sarah is as well hope she is doing ok.

Just typeing to get rid of the anxiety and it is helping a little bit though I think it was all the olanzapine I took that really did the trick.

I think I'll finish there writting for the time being and I will be typing again later on when I feel like it ok ehhh ketchyahs!

cyup
Dande