Here I am feeling a little anxious though not too bad just listening to music and prepping stuff of leadership. I need to be more organised to do the stuff I do like have lifts ready when I go to buy stuff down the street, I want to get these weights that are a dollar each they will be good for me to have to do weight lifting. I need to get a lift though I hope Sarah will drive me down to there to get them I want all of the dollar ones I will not find them cheaper any where else. I hope it is a good day today and I do not get anxiety I have already had 1500ml of green V. I am getting the leg swings and it is prelude to feeling anxiety attack/panic attack, which is no good. I hope I have a good day today and nothing bad happens. I hope Sarah gets here soon so I can go out for a bit and chill with her. I wonder if she'll actually come. Kimberley is seeing guys so I don't want to date her anymore I will still see her though not as her boyfriend and I doubt I will have sex with her again, even if sometimes I want too. I just hope life is good from now on and I get to be doing something in the community that is acceptable and appropriate for myself being who I am. I need to be more a-tune to which there is to do in the community and not miss opprtunity to do something that I will find fun and challenging. I am needing to do something soon as I am doing nothing. I might be selling my belongings at a market soon which I am not too happy about. I rather sell them on Gumtree or Ebay or on community notice boards. I just dont know the things I am willing to part with, I spent ages collecting all my stuff and most of it has been ranstacked already which is bullshit though there is nothing I can do about it!

Anyway I will wind it up there and finish this journal entry with peace out and I hope Sarah comes and sees me today!

DANDE
1:55pm
13 March 2016